Happy valentines sweethearts
So today I wanted to shine some light on who I really am so you can get to know me a little better 🙂 I want the world to know that it is totally normal to not feel 100 % all the time, and I think we are way to hard on our self a lot of times. We need to love ourself more, and listen to what our body is telling us.
I have for some years experienced health issues, many that I can´t even describe with words. I have been a fair amount at the doctors office and hospital, but there seems like there is nothing they can do to help me with my struggles. I have been on medication, gotten immune to them, and prescribed new ones, and same story all over again. At one point I got sick of not feeling success with medication and i wanted to connect with my body to take back the control I had lost. I turned into veganism. Somehow I felt this huge relief that this would be the answer for me. I would finally heal. I only wish it would have been that easy. For many it seams like it is. I was stressed and gained weight and felt even more disconnected than ever. I have done so much research on my own to find the answers that i was searching for. The deeper i got into the world of veganism and healing, the more knowledge I got on holistic healing. There is no such thing as only healing the body by changing diet, if your mind is still all the same. The same stress, the same triggers, the same rituals. The body can be divided into two, the body itself and the mind. I had for over a year been eating vegan foods, but I was not at all getting the results I wanted. I was overeating, unconscious eating, stress eating… I never sat down to actually look at my plate, be mindful and enjoy what I had made. This I have learned now, and I noticed the difference immedietly.
My mind wanders a lot of times, and it is a big stress trigger for me. I am what you would call a highly sensitive being. I can feel the most hurtful pain, panic attacks, anxiety and feeling of depression, but at the same time I can feel the deepest love, light and gratitude. The way I have found to help balance my emotions is thru yoga and meditation. It helps me keep my mind still and at peace.
For the last six months I have been dealing with heavy fatigue. I had to quit everything I was doing, everything that I loved and had a passion for. I didn’t have energy to practise yoga, I fell asleep during meditation, I couldn’t and still can not read the books that i want, for months and months I could´t listen to music, and still now I can only listen to a little bit of yoga mantras/classical music and I don´t have energy to go see my friends. And I am back to where my mind wanders like crazy. I am back to stressing about my future and whats to come. Now more than ever I am more cautious of what I spend my energy on. I focus on natural remedies, natural skincare, cutting out more and more chemicals, eating organic produce and so on. To make the days go by I have found a huge passion for photography and creative writing. It might seem deep and at times dark, but that doesn’t mean it is. It feels so good to formulate feelings and thoughts into something that is so much more. That is also the reason that I started this website, so i have a space for me to share, and hopefully someone out there might need to hear these words and appreciates it. I have hope for the future, and I know that one day it will all be okay! Until then, I do what I can to help myself to be better and do better
Wishing you all the best